The longest hours of my attempt to fulfill a New Year's resolution have arrived. I've got the time, the tech support, and right direction ahead of me. The next moves I make will echo. Having the right amount of start up and go is in balance.
What may be driving my effort is a desire for success. Short term in the form of having a clear head and purpose added to why Ive decided to persue such a goal. I'm experiencing an awakening of sorts, like a character written abour coming to life. characters we read about in books and watch unfold on tv. Only this journey is different since I'm the one calling the play, adjusting the timing, and fine tuning. Obsessing over the coming and going of daylight hours, my relative energy level, the compound effect delay has and not wanting to disturb the sleeping giant that disagrees with everything and not wanting my effort to be applied improperly, controlled, and mocked.
